Christine McGuire

No More Magic

Swollen and sallow in your blue bathrobe,
Bacardi breath poorly camouflaged
behind licorice mints, you gaze
an empty fishing line into

your morning coffee.
At it already, not even 10 a.m.
I watch you watch nothing,
my knuckles grating against my ribs.

I am a blackout, loitering
near the breakfast table,
the same blackout who tucked you
back into bed last night

after coaxing you from your
darkened window,
the empty bottle of rum like
a stillborn infant in your arms.

My voice hurls itself against you,
wishing itself a fist—
If I had a magic want to transform
myself into one of your golden fifths

would you clutch me to your
breast, caress me, breathe
tender syllables into me?

For the last time, I watch
the words, like swatted flies,
spin to the floor at your feet.

Winner of Gertrude’s $25 Editors’ Choice Award